My World. My Life.

Saturday, April 30, 2005

{*misery*}

friendships forged during bmt. a sense of togetherness among platoon mates. more so among section mates. the one time when we did jumping jacks, crunches and pushups as punishment after lights out. the 2 times when we did the route marches, with our fully loaded bags, rifles and webbing. our cup noodles gang doing our act every night.

im gonna miss all that when i get posted out approximately two weeks from now. its not everyday that you get to meet true friends that actually care for you, have fun with you and suffer with you.

if only my knees were fine. i will willingly endure the hardships of army together with my friends and not even whine or bitch about it.

Gabby | 9:49 PM

Friday, April 22, 2005

{*2 weeks!*}

woot. just got back from the 2 weeks in-camp confinement period. im officially out of training, severe knee problem. really hope i will be fine.

Gabby | 11:06 PM

Thursday, April 07, 2005

{*last entry*}

apprehensive. sad. worried. happy. excited. and what have you.

last day before enlistment. just cut my hair. haha i dun look half that bad, phew. oh well im gonna pretend to be a monk till i enlist :)

ohh celine, remember our date with the barber lol.

Gabby | 6:23 PM

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

{*2nd last good bye*}

time passes very fast indeed. im going into the army on friday. as such, i wish to delicate this entry to the following people. they have made differences in my life.

this is in random order:
kaori - for letting me utilise my brain juices by chatting with you
wei ze - for the outing, for being such a good buddy and for the great conversations i had with you
jas - for the endless hours of chatting, outings and the neoprints :)
eve - for the party, for crapping with me and for the planned april fool prank. oh yes and for the german lessons
my dad - for being there, i know i've done numerous wrong, said many wrong things, but you always forgave me
my mum - im sorry for yelling at you, for all the wrongs i've commited. you'll always be my mummy
my sis - for the endless endless hours of teasing, fun and for lending me your bed when you're out. what can i said? you're my jie, im glad i have you as one.
ly + 7b guys and gals - for the party, for the company and for the army tips. i owe you one, ly for the invaluable advice
sc4 guys and gals - for everything! from the first 3 months to fun o rama to prom night. the 2 years have been tough, but enjoyable with you guys. enjoy army, enjoy work and enjoy studying. cheers.
rebecca - sorry for cancelling out on you so many times! you have been there for me, chatting, listening to my troubles, chilling out most of e times.
yan'an - auntie yan'an? (got this off alvin's webby haha) anyhow, im glad to have you as a friend. thanks for listening to me, for assuring me (smu interview), for being what the true definition of friends. good luck.
sherry + celine - my dear seniors! thanks for the encouragements, the hours of teasing and match making (wink wink sherry) and for just being the true blue friends you are. sherry, im sure you'll meet your Mr Right. celine, i hope EVERYTHING will go smoothly for you, no stress.
florence - for the sweet sweet memories in korea and after. you're a great gal, character and looks, i hope you'll do well in your studies and well, everything lol.
matthew - hey man! thanks for the tips, the experience in sec sch, jc and after, and for being a friend
jefri - my very very old friend. thanks for the food, the milk, the company, your sis (oops just kidding) , etc. this list could go on, but in a nutshell, you rock man! good luck in your love life + army life.
marissa - dang our april fool's prank din happen. but thanks for chatting w me, for sharing your preferences haha. have fun studying.
ra + cheryl - for the great conversations i had with you. you guys taught me a lot about life and basically are great great friends. do keep in contact yeah? :)

it is on a sad note that i end this 2nd last entry, or last one(depending on circumstances) before bmt. i appreciate all that you have done for, with and even against me. you're my friends, my relatives, my family and my everything. i owe you guys one. do enjoy life, live it to the fullest. and yeah do not worry about me, i'll suffer, but i'll do it with dignity. thanks one and all.

love,
gabriel

Gabby | 4:04 PM

Sunday, April 03, 2005

{*severe stomache + pope*}

suffered like a rabid dog for 10 hours 40 mins now. woke up with this dull, sickening feeling in my gut, ignored it. condition worsened by a lot, from 7 pm onwards. i thought i had stomach cancer or something blah. finally, wento to visit e doc, after my family came back.

so its either stomach flu or appendicitis. hope its the batter, the latter sounds evil. heard the operation leaves a scar. haha i'm so superficial.

am chatting with jas and bekka now. haha chatting w jas makes me hungry, with all the talk about chips, fish n co, etc. wish i can eat some good food now. bekka being a good friend as usual, listening to my ranting :) enjoy chatting with the both of them.

oh yes the pope. he's in critical condition now. really have no idea where to be happy or sad for him. i sound like a kid, yes. but this is where i scribble my thoughts.

smu interview on tues, dang. haven't been to an interview before in my life. ns enlistment on friday, how sweet. and to the pasar malam store which sold the mee goreng to my sis (i figured that is the cause of the stomach upset), __. i know its crude and so not me, but u made me suffer for nothing.

Gabby | 12:37 AM

Friday, April 01, 2005

{*fragile lives*}

i woke up this morning to the news that the pope has had a heart failure. this set me thinking. as usual, i got myself a few questions to address the matter at hand - life.

what is life? what exactly is religion? what do religion and life got to do with each other? why is life so fragile, so delicate at times, yet tough at other times? what is the meaning of life?

i shall not attempt to even answer my questions - they are beyond my understanding. Man's understanding.

the news of the pope having had a heart failure hit me like a brick between my eyes. im astounded. im confused. im in the dark. the head of a hierachy, established over thousands of years ago, exhibiting the flawed qualities of Man. parkinson's, heart failure, weak state of health. and what not. how are we supposed to lead lives trying to be happy when someone as holy, as significiant as the pope is not able to turn back the passage of time, to resist the downfalls that come with age, to lead effectively when he too knows that life is fragile and he is as vulnerable to sicknesses as the rest of us?

this is not a question of faith. it will come later. but this is just me trying to be a philosopher, trying to figure out what life is, what life holds and what exactly is our soul.

i end this entry on a sad, negative note. are YOU ready to celebrate ur next birthday, knowing full well that life is a design with numerous loopholes intentionally left there, knowing full well that our body, our brain, our soul may just well shut down on us? are YOU willing to spend your life pursuing useless things (useful only when it comes to surviving in this rat race most of us are embroiled in) called degrees, qualifications?

do not dwell on this matter. our 'intelligence' as a member of mankind, as homosapiens, is too limited. we are but underlings, experiments.

Gabby | 3:10 PM