My World. My Life.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

{*Grrr!!*}

my mood - likened to a rollercoaster. up, down, up then down again. GRR!!

Gabby | 9:07 PM

Monday, May 29, 2006

{*look at this photograph*}

im listening to photograph, by nickelback, and i suddenly had a thought. that a photograph does indeed tell a story w/o speaking - your expressions are frozen in time. that smile. that grin. that scowl. you get wad i mean.

however, with the advancement of technology and the invent of digital photography, few people actually print their photographs. sure, there are kiosks whereby u can print your photographs, even found-at-home printers that are able to print those. however, its a minority, these people.

fast forward 50 years. bulky pcs and laptops probably wouldnt exist no more. and so will your hard drives and stored photographs. what solid pieces of the past will you have remaining? will you have the photographs taken with your first gf/bf? or the time you had your first child?

perhaps not.

haha im not advocating or advertising for any printers or photo-printing shops. its just my 2 cents worth.

oh and a little update on whats happening in my life. just went back to unit today (yup end of tekong), bombarded with quite a bit..but it was alright. i take things in my stride. somehow i wish i were still on that darn island lol.

i miss chatting with my friends online. come chat w me if u see me online ok? and oh yes dear, enjoy your holidays. wanna go out drop me a line oki? not a fish line tho. hahha damn im being so lame. ok enough for today. bye folks.

Gabby | 6:37 PM

Friday, May 26, 2006

{*good bye ..my lovers*}

and my lovers refer to the instructors in Alpha Coy, Bmtc Sch 1 as well as all my friends in platoon 3 and 4.
and in case you are wondering, i havent turned gay :D are you kidding? there are way too many babes out there to turn brokeback lol.

7 weeks seem like a long time. being confined to the bunks every weekday night, doing sai-kangs tt noone wanna do, waking up at ungodly hours for breakfast..it was all in the card. but it was the companionship that made it fast. i remember the "powder baths" we gave unsuspecting bunkmates, bamboo sticks being stuck up where the sun doesnt shine (HAHA!), us carrying our pillows & blankets to sleep in the air-conditioned room at 11 pm. i remember lots of stuff - memories that will stay in me.

as we walked to the ferry terminal with all our bags, i felt a sense of sadness. happy sadness i term it. happy that its all over, sad that its all over. doesnt make sense? you will, when you leave friends that you have been with for some time.

GUYS if you're reading this entry, remember to keep in contact ok! every single one of you :D you know who you are.

Gabby | 6:59 PM

Saturday, May 20, 2006

{*1 more weeek!!!*}

hi babes and gentlemen! how have you guys and gurls been? hope everyone's doing good, cos its good to be..good lol. this is gonna be a short entry as im having a slight headache..the pre-book-in syndrome! and yea 1 more week to the end of tekong..PHEW!

man, the past few days have been bad. doing sai-kangs after another. and next week ain't gonna be different. at least i'll be able to throw grenades, to vent any frustration :D

i've been thinking. a lot. about my past, present and future. what i've accomplished and what i've not. and u know what, im gonna work hard. to get good grades, to get a good job and to just settle down.

and PPLE listen up! pls do not buy fur products!! my dear gave me the url to the PETA webby and i saw this video of domestic pets being skinned alive after being hit & stepped on the head...and after being skinned, they were still hanging on to the bare thread of life.

i mean fuck you inhumane creatures who practically torture these animals. how could you do such vile things to animals? do they know have feelings? do they not deserve respect, love? would you do the same to other humans just to earn tt extra buck?

i seldom use vulgarities on my blog. what this is extremely disturbing. i love animals and i HATE to see such punishment melted upon innocent animals.

Gabby | 9:48 PM

Monday, May 15, 2006

{*i wish..*}

i were more carefree. yes that's right. living in this consistently hectic society, where you have to continuously move forward or risk being obsolete, there's little or no room for true enjoyment.

-bored of work? spend the weekends hiking. yeah right - you can try hiking from the bottom of your flat to the top haha.
-fatigued from your normal routine? go to other states and enjoy the scenery, culture and food there. yeah right - singapore is only too small, perhaps you can go to geylang for some food.
-sick of mugging all the time? take time off, roam around the country and do things you like. yeah right - where do you the money?

so yeah its pretty sad living in such a small country.
of course, in the same breath, you can have some fun. go to orchard with good friends, cherish the food, company and jokes. go out with your girlfriend OR boyfriend and just make out till tmr lol. there are too many possiblities.

or perhaps its just me. my world is just too small, too limited. i need exposure to the bigger picture. i need to learn to let go of the things make tt make up my comfort zone and venture to the unknown. pls let me smile more. pls.

Gabby | 10:13 PM

Saturday, May 13, 2006

{*dlb o!*}

man im tired, reeked of smoke(yeah i just bathed, so im ok now) and look like shit. hahha the consequence of clubbing..my 2nd time.

the dancing, music and companionship was good. oh and for the first time, i din get drunk from drinking my fav poison - absolut vodka. i thoroughly enjoyed just letting go of my usual inhibitions and have fun!

however, i realised that there are several things i havent seen before - loose women and aggressive males. there was this female, rather big in size, and she was wearing this skirt. so yeah, bouncing around in this skirt naturally showed off more than i wanted to see. gross.

and my friend got threatened by this foolish guy, who said "do not fuck around with me" even though my friend did not do anything wrong, as far as i saw. so yeah there you have it, foolish imbecile pea-brains who club.

anyhow, i enjoyed myself but i dun think i will go clubbing any time soon. hahha too much smoke, too little air. and too many dead-drunk females.

Gabby | 2:24 AM

Thursday, May 11, 2006

{*and hello again*}

im back folks! man, tekong is exhausting. the ferry ride back was..unexpected. i always knew that there was a zone of water which was rather turbulent - the ferry would rock side to side. however today, it was especially bad! the 2 hulled ferry practicall DIPPED up and down..like wth! perhaps sitting on the 2nd floor was bad too, since the dipping is practically magnified.

and before the ferry ride, after marching to the ferry terminal, i saw this brown dog. yes dogs do exist on this lonely island called tekong. anyhow, this dog..was crippled. i think its rear right leg was hurt :( i really pray for his/her recovery, animals dun deserve to suffer.

ohh and let me get to the good part. i took a cab back with roy and danny. and i sat at the front. bad idea. the female taxi driver(in her late 40s) was apparently, rushing to get back home to her daughter. and she sped like crazy. speed, jam brake, speed, jam brake. you get the idea. ahh and she used the shoulder lane to overtake quite a few times. SCARY MAN! almost got into an accident several times. thank god im still alive.

crazy things happening to me these few weeks. hee on the brighter side of things, im gonna get 2 boxes of colored contact lens. just for da heck of it.

oki gabriel the vainpot signing off.

-florence: study smart, not hard :D good luck for your exams next week.
-jasmine: whoa hope the package you sent back home DOES arrive..!!
-candis: thanks for the company these few nights/weeks/months haha. MUST bring you drinking some day :X

Gabby | 9:25 PM

Sunday, May 07, 2006

{*dear sweetie!!*}

hahha see how nice i am to you dear, even tho i dun feel like blogging, im doing it for you!

you know how some people find long bus rides extremely boring and all that? well i dunno. i feel that being able to sit on a vehicle with adequately strong air-conditioning(hahaha got condition one ok!) gives me space to think. think about my actions during the past few months of my life. think about what i wanna do with my life. and think about relationships.

its strange isnt it? how 2 completely different people with nothing in common can just get together, sharing joy and moments of sorrow and anger. i just find love and relationships intriguing. hahha perhaps its bcos i have never really loved anyone, with the exception of my family members. anyhow, perhaps there will be someone out there to teach me what meaning of it.

oh yes!! before i forget. hahha do you guys and gurls squirm when you see a woman in her late 40s(or 50s) wearing a short skirt(like miles above her knees) and her lil tummy rising(like an egyptian pyramid hahhaa) from the gap left between her skirt and top? GROSS LOR hahha!

oh yes, check out how creative my dearie is. good job honey! love them :D

muacks!

Gabby | 9:52 PM

Saturday, May 06, 2006

{*reflections*}

you know how the saying goes that the environment will change a person? well i guess its truly..erh true. no matter how tough an environment a person is thrown into, he will fight to survive. he will adapt and he will become stronger.

i went through field camp last week. it was short, but it provided me time and space to think. i no longer jump at the sight of insects. i can say i slept in the forest. and i can say i got to interact with nature. insects, mud, scorpions, that sort of things.

haha having that, i do have some reservations - living on processed food (ie packaged biscuits, field rations, etc) has me craving for real food. not those dry, tasteless food that has little or no nutrition. and it has changed me. i ate rice (along with the ingredients) from the cookhouse whereas in the past i always did not.
i cannnot tolerate for the love of humanity dirtiness. and this applies to my uniform especially :( but well hey a man has to do what a man has to do...and that is to be dirty lol!

3 more weeks to passing out. gonna miss all my bunkmates, sergeants, 2lts. it will b a good experience, an experience to be etched in my memory. hello civilisation.

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a quick shoutout to some folks reading this blog.

florence: rem to take care of yourself even as you slog to complete projects, assignments. try to cheer up yeah :D your bro would probably be regretting what he did..so dun blame yourself or him dear.
candis: STUDY HARD honey! pass this hurdle, and you shall see light. hahhaa ok not so drastic la, but the end of the year will come and you'll have a looooonngg holiday!
iris: hello lil monster :) how have you been??
eve: i absolutely hate traffic jams toooo!!! hahha nvm next time u drive and get caught in one, call your bf or me! provide 24 hour entertainment! hmmm sounds like a male escort agency now o.O
jasmine: hang on there jasmine. a few years will go pass quickly and i will call you doctor jasmine. know your ambition and pursue it :)

Gabby | 8:08 PM